Random Thoughts about Rain and Routine

Random Thought #1

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I have a love hate relationship with Rain..

I love it because it keeps the grass growing in my pastures and that is a good thing so the horses have more grass to eat and less hay I have to buy.

I hate it because it’s been raining non-stop for 12+ days and everything is soaking wet, my arena is the perfect muddin’ pit (country people you know what I’m talking about, crank up the 4wheelers and lets get muddy!), I have cabin fever and my routine has been destroyed. I now have to get back into the routine I had before the rain which is going to be hard.

All the rain we’ve had lately has made me lazy and more tired.

 

Random Thought #2

I’m a huge routine person. I like planning out my day and sticking to the plan. When something happens that changes that plan, I feel like my inner compass is completely thrown off and it’s hard for me to get back on track. For instance, yesterday I had a hair appt. I assumed it would take an hour to hour and a half. So I had planned to get home have plenty of time to get all my farm chores taken care of and then workout, eat dinner and read. Instead, the appt ended up taking two and half hours. Which meant I lost time and wouldn’t have enough time to get everything done. Because I get up so early (5:15-5:30am) in the morning by 9:30 at night I’m super tired and ready for bed. So my window of time to get things done after work is only 4 hours. That means I only have 4 hours to ride, take care of animals, eat, workout, read, and catch up on any tv shows. Not.Enough.Time.

So what happens when I run out of time, well riding is the first thing to go. Now that’s more true then before because of there being less daylight when I get home. I can’t ride after dark since I don’t have arena lights, so I basically have to give up riding. It sucks, because now is when I love riding the most. I really hope one of these days I’ll have arena lights but for now thats at the bottom of the to do list.

I really struggle mentally with not being able to accomplish everything I set out to do in a day. It makes me feel lazy. It makes me feel like I failed. Part of me feels like I didn’t manage my time well and then the other part is stressed out because I know I won’t be able to make up the lost activities on another day. I just have to deal with the fact I didn’t get it all done and I really hate that.

Now I know I could lessen the amount of stress on myself by not trying to cram so much in such a short amount of time. But dang then what kind of life do I live. I basically would be living only to work and let me tell you that thought sucks worse. I already hate that to have a good paying career I have to work 5 days a week and have no life during the week. Then I have 2 days on the weekend to get everything done that I don’t get to do during the week which seldomly happens. When it does though, man is it the best feeling in the world. Those days when I accomplish it all plus some really do feel great and it’s that feeling that pushes me forward. I want to feel that way everyday, not just on the weekends. Ya know?

I really don’t know why I’m sharing this random thought with you though. Maybe it is because I want to hear from you that I’m not the only one with this struggle. Maybe it’s just so I can get it off my shoulders. Heck maybe it’s just because I’ve had cabin fever for so many days that I am going insane. LOL. Who knows. I do feel slightly better after getting all that out but how to make it better and change it so I can accomplish everything is still a mystery to me.

 

So Tell Me..

• Are you a routine person? Do you like planning every detail of your life or do you just go with the flow?
• Do you struggle with accomplishing everything you set out in a day but not having enough time to do it? How do you get over it?